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Genre: J2 RPS AU
Pairing: Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki
Rating: NC17
Word count: 50,400
Warnings: Scarred/Disabled Character, PTSD, Memories of combat violence. Elements of H/C.
Summary: After three tours of duty in Iraq and Afghanistan, Jared has come home to Texas, working a steady job as a security guard and trying to patch himself back together. His dreams are less than kind, but he copes for the sake of those who never made it back. Jared's not expecting to meet someone like Jensen Ackles - a Dallas businessman with confidence and charisma in spades. They connect over coffee breaks and high-spirited basketball games with Jared's vet buddies, and what begins as friendship quickly deepens into a defining romance. Although Jared's willing to share his physical scars with Jensen, the burden of hiding his emotional wounds weighs heavily on both of them. As Jensen scrambles to put a name to his boyfriend's symptoms, Jared struggles each and every day, and neither of them sees the storm on the horizon until it's too late.
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Part Four (a) | Part Four (b) | Part Five
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notes. This is not a story about war. At its core, it's a story about a relationship growing under tremendous pressure. I purposely left out detailed descriptions of enemy combatants and the language I know most soldiers to use (I have cousins who are the poster boys for gung-ho), because none of it would add to the story I was trying to tell.
I began writing this at least three years ago. At this point, I can’t even remember what the original idea was. It lingered on my hard drive for a long time, pulled out each Big Bang season before being replaced on the shelf in favor of another idea. But I never gave up. This year, I was determined to bring it to the light of day! But I’d started it so far in the past that it needed major updating. Basically, I started writing this before anyone had heard of The Voice (and I eventually changed my original character, Blake, into a young mullet-less Blake Shelton), and before the repeal of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell. That event changed so much about this story. Cindy Sampson was still relevant in Supernatural, but I’d come to enjoy her character so much that I had to keep her around.
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Seeing this is so many kinds of crazy and amazing - out of all the Big Bangs out there....yikes! I really really hope this lives up to expectations. I love it so much ♥ Safe travels!
This was a difficult journey, not a light story or one with a clear steady easy path toward fixing everything. It felt real, and painful, and I loved your characters so very much!
Lived up to all my hopes!
Excellent! I'm so happy to hear that ♥ Sounds like you had a mountain of travel to get through, but I'm glad you had this to keep you company during the layover ;)
Thank you so much!